Saturday, August 10, 2013

drained

My life is crazy right now.
Lots of hard things. Lots of good things.
And then more hard things on top.
I feel like my strength is being tested to its very limits.

I have tons of stuff that I could blog about.
I have even been able to complete several projects.
But when I sit down to work on
the calligraphies I have been commissioned to make,
the contribution I am making to Made,
the posts I have planned to write here,
or even to play in my art journal,
I feel drained.
Paralyzed.
Dry.
Completely used up and exhausted.
Like my life has crashed down around my ears
and my will is seeping out through the cracks.

I am trying to be gentle with myself.
I tell myself:
everything that needs to get done
will happen in good time.
But it's hard.
Hard.