drained

My life is crazy right now.

Lots of hard things. Lots of good things.

And then more hard things on top.

I feel like my strength is being tested to its very limits.

I have tons of stuff that I could blog about.

I have even been able to complete several projects.

But when I sit down to work on

the calligraphies I have been commissioned to make,

the contribution I am making to Made,

the posts I have planned to write here,
or even to play in my art journal,

I feel drained.
Paralyzed.

Dry.

Completely used up and exhausted.
Like my life has crashed down around my ears
and my will is seeping out through the cracks.

I am trying to be gentle with myself.

I tell myself:
everything that needs to get done
will happen in good time.

But it's hard.

Hard.